I am going to start filtering some of my more private musings. Since blogger does not have a tool for that, you will need to visit my Live Journal and ask to be friended there. I will continue to post Daily Gratitude and other subjects here. There is also a FAQ for my Journal at the same link.
| Tuesday, March 12, 2002 @ 21:12 I'm going through a hypercritical phase again. Suddenly I'm tearing apart things I've accepted as fact for quite sometime. The pieces are falling in very unexpected patterns. Weird, though, that it isn't emotionally draining, scary, or even disturbing -- it all seems natural. Things are clicking in a way they haven't in the past. I am losing some of the uneasiness I felt about myself and what I wanted as I change my view of just what that is. I don't think I'm turning into a different person. It's more like shedding the skin that never fit quite right. It looked right and in some places it fit well, but there were areas of discomfort. Now, some of the people in my life may decide that I've lost my mind, or that there's something personal in what I'm saying. While this isn't about anyone but myself, in a way, both are true. I'm losing the parts of my mind that were trying to be something I wasn't and this is a very personal process. In finding some of these ideas, I'm not experiencing a discovery or a change. I'm coming home to feelings and urges that have always been there, but I wasn't ready to acknowledge. I'm going to go find that quote from the conversation with j a few days ago. Maybe that will help demonstrate that this is an evolution, not a revolution, of thought.
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