I am going to start filtering some of my more private musings. Since blogger does not have a tool for that, you will need to visit my Live Journal and ask to be friended there. I will continue to post Daily Gratitude and other subjects here. There is also a FAQ for my Journal at the same link.
| Friday, March 01, 2002 @ 07:26 Someone asked me how I found a local prospect, because she is wanting to expand her life to include bottoms/submissive and isn't sure where to start looking. I told her it was an ad on a alternative sexuality personals site. I also mentioned that maybe it's just the energy has changed. I am approaching five years since I discovered the bdsm community online. Other than a time when I had a horde of cyber subs chasing me, I've never been as popular as I am now. A long, dry spell where I didn't even beat a friend (and longer since I've had sex) has given way to losing count of the women I flirt with online -- all of whom are either local or one state away and able to travel to see me. In the month of February I beat two different women, had a third cook me dinner, have two out-of-staters planning to visit soon, and a sixth(!!!!) who offered to cook for me too (and probably will soon). This is in addition to Caliann and I stepping up the level of our flirtation and considering actually doing something about it. How the hell did I go from nothing to this?? I could make a fortune bottling it. My friends have always told me that they hope I find what I want and deserve happiness. Maybe this is a result of all that good energy being out there, directed toward me. Maybe it's that I'm finally "settled" in my life here (a job I mostly enjoy, an apartment I'll be in til at least May '03, a city I love, finally making a dent in long-term debt) and so there is space in my life for happiness. Maybe I'm just, finally, comfortable enough in my own skin to flirt and tease and entice people to spend time. More likely I'm just more open to the signals that women are interested in me and confident enough to do something about it. I am going to have to do something about all these women. It's tiring saying "the long distance prospect who wants to be my slave" and "the local prospect that I session at least once a week" and "the boi who cooked for me" and "the non masochist who wants to brush my hair." It's much easier to refer to Caliann, because you know her name (or can look it up in past Journal entries and the People listing). These women need some sort of nickname to refer to here. I'll have to talk to them.
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