I am going to start filtering some of my more private musings. Since blogger does not have a tool for that, you will need to visit my Live Journal and ask to be friended there. I will continue to post Daily Gratitude and other subjects here. There is also a FAQ for my Journal at the same link.
| Sunday, June 09, 2002 @ 19:22 I do miss them. NM and j. Somewhere the potential for lovely relationships disappeared and while they are still peripherally in my life, they don't want to be part of it. Things happen and I think of sharing it with either or both of them and have to remind myself that I can't go there anymore. The boi and I discussed how much fun we could have had with each of them -- how much she has in common with each...she respects that I'm still processing these losses and she comforts my pain as well as helps me forget it for awhile, but only for awhile. She knows, as do I, that it will take time for that to be released. For now she's the poly one and I'm still healing. (I'm going to play with a few friends next month, but that's a different level of poly than forming relationships the way I was with j and NM.) She has two existing relationships as well as the play partners and she understands the process I'm experiencing with releasing NM and j and how reluctant I am to do so.
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