I am going to start filtering some of my more private musings. Since blogger does not have a tool for that, you will need to visit my Live Journal and ask to be friended there. I will continue to post Daily Gratitude and other subjects here. There is also a FAQ for my Journal at the same link.
| Tuesday, November 12, 2002 @ 20:49 "One must be pitiless about this matter of 'mood.' In a sense, the writing will create the mood. If art is, as I believe, it to be, a genuinely transcendental function -- a means by which we rise out of limited, parochial states of mind -- then it should not matter very much what states of mind we are in." -- Joyce Carol Oates "Of course, without craft, no amount of personal eccentricity, no depth of human strangeness will make your work good. You must channel your neurosis in the service of prolonging and improving your writing life." -- Betsy Lerner The Forest for the Trees: An Editor's Advice to Writers (written by Ms. Lerner) generated both of those quotes. Sitting in hospital waiting rooms and parking lots, I'm doing a lot of reading lately. Books about writing and editing and the one thing I always dreamed of being when I grew up. Only I'm spending my time and energy stressing over the fact that I can't get a f***ing job as an administrative assistant or receptionist or something that will pay the bills. I need a job. I enjoy having a place to go where I can be productive and see results. I need money to pay the bills and start saving for the future my boi and I have planned. None of this has anything to do with writing and it's creating a terrible tension in me right now -- and I don't need anymore stress right now! I don't know what it is to lose a parent. I can only imagine the pain of seeing the strongest person in your life hooked up to machines and tubes and unable to speak or move. All I can do is hold on to her and give her as much of my strength as she needs and reassure her that she will make it through this -- however long it lasts. And in between I have to find a job and juggle credit and borrow money so that we have a place to live and a car to drive us to the hospital and don't get too much further in debt. And in the middle of all that....I dream of writing....and write on these blogs when I can -- mostly on the Spirituality one lately.
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