I am going to start filtering some of my more private musings. Since blogger does not have a tool for that, you will need to visit my Live Journal and ask to be friended there. I will continue to post Daily Gratitude and other subjects here. There is also a FAQ for my Journal at the same link.
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| Sunday, November 28, 2004 @ 08:25 I haven't been very expressive about my sadist and Master sides lately. My life has been very vanilla in many ways, though my dynamic with boy remains one of authority and protection. Due to physical conditions and timing, it's been quite awhile since we've had the energy for an extended SM interaction, or even a sexual one. I can't say we're vanilla. Whether it's boy not sitting down for dinner until I give him permission or realizing that the things "regular" couples fight about aren't issues for us because I make the decisions and he obeys, I am reminded daily that we are M/s. Are we "kinky" at the moment? Only in our heads. To the outer world, even our bdsm/leather friends, we may look like "weekenders" who haven't even been active on weekends. We know better. And even if our kink is in a momentary lull, our M/s bond is stronger than ever. I remarked to boy the other night as we were falling asleep that he is much more "My boy" now than he was when I first accepted his surrender. I have been putting my daily log on my vanilla LiveJournal, Virgo Musings. So if you want to know what I do with my days (minus the adult activities, that is), check it out. I think it's mostly boring, but a few people have let me know they appreciate seeing what my life looks like. I've posted a few none-log reflections/perceptions/rants there and plan to write a few more. I'm trying to save this journal for the M/s and SM stuff and the third journal is for My Spirituality. Though we all know how well it worked for me in the past to try to separate the aspects of my life. I am facing some major decisions in the coming months: whether to stay at my job or search for another one, whether to go back to school, whether to try to move in January when the lease on this apartment is up, whether to re-energize our search for a third to fill out our family, whether I'm ready to take on the task of producing an annual Master-slave event I've been tossing around in my head for a few months, when to start presenting at local events on a few topics I've been developing...I guess I should feel excited about all these opportunities for growth and expansion. It's cloudy and chilly outside and this is the fourth day in a row I've been housebound while boy has the car at work, so I'm not exactly upbeat at the moment. I suppose I should be thankful I don't have to drive in the post-Thanksgiving shopping traffic and enjoy curling up in this warm apartment surrounded by my cats and read or catch up on some movie watching.
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