I am going to start filtering some of my more private musings. Since blogger does not have a tool for that, you will need to visit my Live Journal and ask to be friended there. I will continue to post Daily Gratitude and other subjects here. There is also a FAQ for my Journal at the same link.
sick and tired -- and happy?
| Sunday, September 11, 2005 @ 08:27 Sometimes I wish the universe would work on my timetable instead of Its own. I started a new long-term temp assignment and then boy got sick and then I got sick and boy now has to work extra shifts at his no-longer good job. So, the house has fallen into a cluttered, stacked, dusty mess and we don't have the energy (or in my case, the physical coordination) to fix it. So, I ask: why haven't we found the other slave to complete our triad? -- or at least our non-livein servant? That elusive service-oriented individual who will take care of us when we're sick or overworked and accept my guidance and authority? The one(s) that we will love and nuture and laugh with? I look at a friend who has been "in leather" for fewer years than mysElf (I remember when he first wandered into a chat room asking what bdsm was all about!) and he has two bois and a girl in his life. To be fair, I also know a dominant-dominant couple who have both been looking for submissive individuals (separately & together) for, oh, about five years, and only found one in the last six weeks. I may have to trust that the Universe with provide, but sometimes I do want to yell at It -- on my friends' behalf as well as my own. So, if you know of any service-oriented bio-female or trans slaves in the Phoenix area (or willing to relocate) who want to serve a female Master under a bio-female boy/Daddy switch, send them my way, okay? I'll forward those who aren't compatible to other friends who are seeking in this area. On the good news front: I am in the middle of a long-term temp assignment which is breathing some health into our financial situation. Which is necessary, because the odds of finding a housemate when there's only four months left on our lease is pretty dismal. I've broadened my job search to include HR jobs (which is what I'm temping right now) and I think I might be happy in the right company doing HR again. It's also going to pay more than being an Admin Asst in a non-profit. We've got to make our expenses for the next four months AND save up money for deposits at a new place AND find a way for boy to transfer to a better (though probably lower-paying) job. Anyone want to split lottery tickets? I do trust that the universe wanted us to experience this for the growth involved. I felt compelled to buy a brand new car last fall and move into this huge, expense rental in January, not just because they were pretty, but because we both intuited it was the "right" thing to do. And even though the Universe planned for us to lose two housemates in the first five months of living here and me to lose my job in the middle of that, we're still here. We're still making the rent (and all the other bills), we're still strong in our relationship and active in our community organizations (I'm actually MORE active than I was at the beginning of the year). We're still expanding our spirituality, artistic creativity, and emotional skills. And we're still solidly trusting that the Universe has a plan that will keep us. I guess it is possible to be anxious, worried, sick, frustrated, and happy at all once.
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