I am going to start filtering some of my more private musings. Since blogger does not have a tool for that, you will need to visit my Live Journal and ask to be friended there. I will continue to post Daily Gratitude and other subjects here. There is also a FAQ for my Journal at the same link.
procrastination & fear
| Thursday, July 20, 2006 @ 07:08 It's been a month since I got my head shaved. I promised that I would be writing about the process -- the transformation rite in which I found mysElf. I've been trying to sit at the keyboard and write about it since. I am blocked in doing so. And that block is fear. So, I procrastinate. A very common pattern with me when I'm afraid of things. A huge chunk of my fear is that this journal is public -- it is posted on blogspot.com and mirrored on LJ. While LJ gives me a chance to do "friends only," blogger doesn't. Still, my position has always been that I have nothing to hide and, therefore, I don't use any posting filters. Now, I am considering it. While there isn't any "adult" content in what I have to say, it is intensely personal to me. There is no way for me to know who reads my journal. That is supposed to be a good thing -- a way to be open and free to be mysElf. I still get uneasy when I see a comment posted on either site from someone I don't know. It means people are randomly finding my entries and reading my thoughts. For the last month, that has been bothering me. Realistically, I know that what I have to say isn't in any way dangerous to me. Nothing bad is going to happen to me if I share these thoughts on the web. There isn't anything special about it -- I've shared my thoughts on bdsm, Master/slave, poly, religion, spirituality, the insane work system in our society, etc. I'm not sure why I feel the need to be closed on this one. If anyone wants to share their own experiences with deciding whether or not to filter, I'd appreciate it.
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