I am going to start filtering some of my more private musings. Since blogger does not have a tool for that, you will need to visit my Live Journal and ask to be friended there. I will continue to post Daily Gratitude and other subjects here. There is also a FAQ for my Journal at the same link.
mental paralysis
| Thursday, August 03, 2006 @ 08:29 I'm going through a very horrid period of mental paralysis right now. It's truly not the same as procrastination -- I'm not avoiding doing things as I have in the past. There are so many things I want to do, from paying bills and working on art projects to simply answering someone's e-mail or posting a "daily gratitude" -- my will just hasn't been strong enough to overcome this stuff. boy and I spent some time on the phone with my Leather Sister yesterday, because the friction between intent and ability was so overwhelming I couldn't handle it anymore. She was able to psychically identify the major sources of the problem and recommend some countermeasures and protections I could employ. I am slowly building up strength to combat the psychic attacks and bolster my inner strength. I know that going home will help me get free of this paralysis -- to be in a climate and environment that I find supportive and natural (there's too much green here and no mountains and the air is too heavy) and to be in the bosom of my FOC and extended community of friends and acquaintances -- to get hugs and laughs and smiles, rather than voices on the phone and words on a computer screen. Unfortunately, I also know that I can't get home until I get past the paralysis -- as there is much to do in order to move my household back to Arizona. baby steps. breathing in and out. saging mysElf. wearing a head barrier in the company of the sources of psychic attack. expanding my aura. Those of you who are expecting responses from me in e-mails, lists, snail mail, etc., please be patient. I will get through this and resume the relationships that are so nurturing and nourishing to me.
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