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nearly bald
| Sunday, September 03, 2006 @ 11:05 I had boy shave my head on Friday. It had been two months since I did my Solstice rite and shaved it all. It's amazing how fast it grew back. I wanted it shaved again weeks ago, but I needed to wait until we got back from Phoenix. I was afraid of putting off any potential landlords. Now it will be about 2 weeks from shave to return to Phoenix, so it won't look as obviously bald. The sucky thing is that after struggling with the regrowth in the hot & humid weather, as soon as it got reshaved, the temps dropped. So I go outside and my head gets cold. Instead of needing a hat to protect my scalp from the sun, I need it to keep warm! boy is having a hard time with the weather shift as well -- it's just not supposed to be 60 degrees in early Sept. At least we know it's "normal" back home. 90s & 100s -- and will still be that when we return. I still startle mysElf when I look in the mirror. Even with the cold to remind me that my head is bare, it's odd to see the baldness. For so many years there was so much hair there. I forget when I'm out in public, too. People will be looking at me and I'll think I dropped something or tore something or that they are just weird to be looking at me. Then I'll get to my car and realize it's the head. Not many bald women in Topeka, KS. Maybe they think I'm sick or that I'm a psycho dyke or religious nut. I had enough hair grow back that I wasn't getting looks anymore. Now I do again. I do still have moments of grief for my hair. I was watching "Bride & Prejudice" on cable yesterday and there was an Indian woman with hair braided down to her knees. I always wanted that. Even if I could keep my hair healthy enough to grow that long, it would take so many years to achieve that look now -- assuming that the weight didn't make my head fall off in the process. Mom mentioned that she's still surprised at how good I look with a shaved head. Other people have told me that I look "hot" or that it makes me look much younger. I think it just makes me look more like mysElf. I spent so many years hiding behind my hair and living a "conventional" life. This (no) hairstyle makes it clear that I am unconventional and happiest that way. I would hope that if I'm smiling more and feeling freer, I would look more attractive -- and that has to do with mysElf, not my bald head.
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